Saturday, March 3, 2012

mint tea and slivers



my heart heavy
weighted 
with a love 
i was not yet strong enough
 to hold
all i wanted 
was to grow old with you
sip mint tea
 under the stars

swing on the porch
listening to the lull of the cars
 on the highway
smiling
reminiscing
 about moons that waned
while our souls rained
childhood dreams

somehow 
while i was carving my heart
 to fit your key
i lost sight of the me
you needed me to be
and so our love grew grey
and drifted away

and what i wanted you to say
was that no matter what
it'd be ok
we'd be ok
but that's not the way it works, is it?
shit happens
vows break

who woulda known
that an innocent mistake
might take us out of the fold of forever
turning a lifelong endeavor
into yesterday's news

i'd like to believe
we choose our fate
that as we grate bone
to fill fleshy fears
tears might bleed us back to clay

i laugh
seriously
who would stay
to wade through knee-deep madness
who would have enough patience
to bear the weight
of static sadness

who wouldn't run
at the first sight of silence
who wouldn't break free
from chains that only stain
sentiments better suited for postcards

alone i stay
collecting shards of half truths
painted just the way i like them
sparkly
sharp
slivers of hope 
that still sting when I breathe

and all i can do is believe
clench fragments of dreams
crazy glue promises we made
to the blades i hone chaos with
wrap myself in your voice

make the choice to sever
to weather the storm inside my gut
and for all but a moment 
of false sanity
not regret stripping myself down bare

and as i prepare to take my leave
careful not to breath
 the dust of my own devastation
without a single moment of hesitation
i walk away

into the darkness of light
no longer willing to fight
for this

eyes closed
as the distance between us grows
i blow you one last kiss
from my heart


so it is
that we must part
start to live again
heal the wounds of want
holding tight to the hope
that one day
we’ll free ourselves
from ego chokeholds
and learn be friends
again

5 comments:

  1. That is a great poem...keep writing...that is talent....sohail

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  2. absolutely gorgeous. perfect picture. a snapshot of the heart.

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  3. #newfan this is an amazing soul felt piece laced with a tongue dripped in honey. Wonderful write and spit!!

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  4. Thank you all very much for your kind words. This poem was a journey for me, as most are. But I most certainly felt my soul unravelling while this one came to life. Much love and light to you all for allowing me to share my poetry in a way that is free. Thank you again! xo

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